I had experienced something known as “The Akashic Records” ( An eternal library of infinite information stored in the fabric of reality (Everything) for about 5+ years. In that time I had my higher self showing me visions and speaking to me everyday...

I had experienced something known as “The Akashic Records” ( An eternal library of infinite information stored in the fabric of reality (Everything) for about 5+ years. In that time I had my higher self showing me visions and speaking to me everyday for hours on end, much like vivid daydreaming. Part of this happened because of childhood trauma. I was in a car accident when I was 6 and my mother died in front of me. This caused me to depersonalize (dissociate without coming back to a personality.) Living in a heightened state of fear. This became my normal and I had no idea, growing up masking my terror and feelings, my personality was a hollow husk of an ego, and it would leave me feeling dead inside. Diagnosed Autistic, ADHD, Depression, and Anxiety I had my Spiritual awakening in 2016, when I celebrated too hard with cannabis. Something switched in me that night. I had experienced feeling like the biggest thing in the universe and the smallest point at the same time. This vibrant intense feeling forced many subconscious perspectives. Not long after, I realized I was in a prison of my mind and body. My soul was telling me this wasn’t right, I felt inside out and not in my body or mind because of my trauma. I was determined to fix myself for my future family. I was getting married soon and I wanted to be the best partner I could for my spouse and future kids. I truly thought it would only take a couple of years to “fix” myself fully, I thought all I had to do was eat healthier, exercise, learn, and keep trying to stop the chronic pain. I was mistaken. They believed in me far longer than they should have and suffered by me, an emotionless, overstimulated, endless epiphany having, self centered, traumatized 6 year old trapped in an adult body. I do not blame myself, but I will not deny the toxicity of the situation either. It doesn’t matter if I think I’m a good person trying to do the right thing, Inevitably I still hurt the people I love. So goes the ebb and flow of life. Now that I was aware of my condition I couldn’t go back to the bliss of ignorance, I couldn’t unlearn what I saw. I had to manage using cannabis medicinally, hourly, everyday. My focus was unbearable. The best way to describe my mind at the time was like me inebriated, in a car, that is spinning out of control, and with no hands on the wheel. It literally felt impossible, but what I had seen showed me otherwise, the power of will. I trained myself out of depersonalization over 8.5 years following “The Voice and Visions.” with intention going through many discomforts, pains, anxieties, fears, and terrors. Learning what I could and applying the spiritual downloads I was given. With all that information I created a visual guide book based on my own personal experience, it is a work in progress up to 156 pages so far. Now, I try to practice, living, and learning more spiritual techniques and thought patterns to help raise my frequency.